This house no longer feels like a home
It’s a haunted place where you used to roam
And I swear I can still hear your voice
But I keep waking up alone

Nothing lasts forever
And there are no exceptions
When we were together
Everything was better

And I’m not ready to give you up
You had my back when I felt not good enough
And when I’d cry you were by my side
Every time, and I
I’m not ready to say

Goodbye, I loved you for so many years
And just like that you had to disappear
I’ve been looking around and you’re not there
I guess I’ll keep expecting to see you here

Nothing lasts forever
And there are no exceptions
When we were together
Everything was better

And I’m not ready to give you up
You had my back when I felt not good enough
And when I’d cry you were by my side
Every time, and I
I’m not ready to say

There’s a hole in my chest that you made when you left, and I
I don’t have what it takes to make it feel alright
Tell me how do I live my life without you in it
Life is too short so treasure every minute

I hope you know
Just how hard it is to let you go
And I hope you see how much you mean to me

And I’m not ready to give you up
You had my back when I felt not good enough
And when I’d cry you were by my side
Every time, and I
I’m not ready to say

I’m not ready, no, no, I dunno if I’m ever gonna be
I’m not ready no, no, I dunno if I’m ever gonna be
I’m not ready to say
Goodbye

I’m so tired
I could sleep for a million years
But my brains hard-wired
Whispering my deepest fears
All the worries, and the what-ifs
Dancing in my head
You know what they say,
Work hard, you can sleep when you’re dead

But I’m so close to the finish line
I don’t know if I’ll make it in time

‘Cause I
Was a wildfire
Reduced to a candle
And I’m running out of air
And I
Think it’s just too much for me to handle
But no one ever said that life was fair
No one ever said that life was, no

No one ever said, no I never said
No one ever said, no I never said
No one ever said that life was fair

I got dreams and aspirations
It’s not that I don’t have the patience
I just need a little affirmation ‘cause the isolation
Feels like I’m left standing at a space station
Maybe I need some reconciliation
But I’m wondering
What’s my sin
I’m wearing myself thin
And the last thread is unravelling

But I’m so close to the finish line
I don’t know if I’ll make it in time

‘Cause I
Was a wildfire
Reduced to a candle
And I’m running out of air
And I
Think it’s just too much for me to handle
But no one ever said that life was fair
No one ever said that life was, no

Once I burned so bright
Now I’m crashing like a meteorite
It’s a matter of time
Before I collide
And I can’t help this feeling inside
Like the walls are caving in
Gravity’s hitting me in full swing
It’s like I’ve lost my wings
And I just wanna be whole again
I just wanna be whole again
I just wanna be

‘Cause I
Was a wildfire
Reduced to a candle
And I’m running out of air
And I
Think it’s just too much for me to handle
But no one ever said that life was fair
No one ever said that life was, no

No one ever said, no I never said
No one ever said, no I never said
No one ever said that life was fair

No one ever said, no I never said
No one ever said, no I never said
No one ever said that life was fair

You gave me a reason
To keep on believing
Then took all those feelings away
Kept me up when I was down
But now you’re not around
And now all that remains is the ache

I know it sounds cheesy
But please just believe me
When I say
I’ve been trying to pave
Over the holes that you made
And I can’t seem to find away

How can I live
How can I live with myself
How can I love
If I can’t forgive myself
I wanna move past it
But I’m stuck staring back at it
Living in a memory
And I know we were a mess
But I guess
I just miss how things used to be

I’m starting to see
You were never good for me
I’ve got 20/20 hindsight vision
Looking back it’s so clear
So why do I still want you here
I gotta move on so I can start living

And no, it’s not easy
But please just believe me
I’m okay
I’ve managed to pave
Over the holes that you made
Yeah, I finally found a way

How can I live
How can I live with myself
How can I love
If I can’t forgive myself
I wanna move past it
But I’m stuck staring back at it
Living in a memory
And I know we were a mess
But I guess
I just miss how things used to be

{Piano solo}

And I’m tired
Of falling for the same excuses
And I’m tired
Of feeling so damn useless
Yeah you built me up
Just to break me down
Well take one last look at me
‘Cause I’m standing now
And I’m trying
And I’ll find a way
To make it through this

How can I live
How can I live with myself
How can I love
If I can’t forgive myself
I wanna move past it
But I’m stuck staring back at it
Living in a memory
And I know we were a mess
But I guess
I just miss how things used to be

Yeah I know we were a mess
But I guess
I just miss how things used to be

I am a mirror
And I exist to please
So tell me exactly
What is it you need me to be

Lost when I am with you
Lost when I’m without you

But you, you were never good for me
When you wanna change me
I’m better off on my own
You, you never really cared for me
But you will learn to see
I’m better off on my own
You, you were never good for me
As soon as you wanted me
To be anything else but me
And I can clearly see now
That you wanted me
To be your deity
I’m not your Aphrodite
I’m not your Aphrodite

Trying to find myself
In somebody else
Left me empty handed
What I’m searching for
I’ve never seen before
So how could I understand it

Lost when I am with you
Lost when I’m without you

But you, you were never good for me
When you wanna change me
I’m better off on my own
You, you never really cared for me
But you will learn to see
I’m better off on my own
You, you were never good for me
As soon as you wanted me
To be anything else but me
And I can clearly see now
That you wanted me
To be your deity
I’m not your Aphrodite
I’m not your Aphrodite

Why is it my job to make you feel secure
When in doing so, I am uncomfortable
Why is it my task to make you feel happy
When it makes me miserable
Why do I feel like I’m less than my value
When I am around you
If you can’t take me as I am
You’ll never have me at all
I am not your virtue

But you, you were never good for me
When you wanna change me
I’m better off on my own
You, you never really cared for me
But you will learn to see
I’m better off on my own
You, you were never good for me
As soon as you wanted me
To be anything else but me
And I can clearly see now
That you wanted me
To be your deity
I’m not your Aphrodite
I’m not your Aphrodite

I’m tired but I can’t sleep
I’m starving but I can’t eat
I’m trying but I can’t seem
To get out of bed
I’m wired but I can’t focus
And I already know this
Is all in my head

My demons are eating me alive
Tearing apart my insides
And I can’t hide from myself

Can anybody help me
‘Cause lately I’ve been so weak
I’ve been running on empty
And I can barely breathe
Is anybody listening
‘Cause I need someone to hear me
I’ve been running on empty
For weeks
For weeks

In the mirror all I see are flaws
Wish I could put my feelings on pause
‘Cause now I’m feeling like a lost cause
Every day
Might be pretty but I feel ugly
Every little thing just seems to bug me
I just wish somebody would come hug me
And tell me it’s okay

My demons are eating me alive
Tearing apart my insides
And I can’t hide from myself

Can anybody help me
‘Cause lately I’ve been so weak
I’ve been running on empty
And I can barely breathe
Is anybody listening
‘Cause I need someone to hear me
I’ve been running on empty
For weeks
For weeks

I don’t wanna do this anymore
I just need one good reason to keep fighting on
Trying to make it through the storm
I don’t think I can do this on my own
Can anybody help me
Is anybody listening

Can anybody help me
‘Cause lately I’ve been so weak
I’ve been running on empty
And I can barely breathe
Is anybody listening
‘Cause I need someone to hear me
I’ve been running on empty
For weeks
For weeks

I’ve been lying to my face when I say
Tomorrow’s a new day, and it’s gonna be better
My emotions fluctuate like a sine wave
And I can’t blame it on the cosmos or the weather
At the end of the day, it’s me that I have to come home to
So I’ve been working on the person that’s in
This body I belong to
But they’ve had a rough past
And they’re trying to work past it
Dragging their feet in the sand
Trying to understand
How to navigate
In a world that’s shown so much hate
How can you be grateful still
With a brain so ill

If I could write a letter
To that person
I think I’d tell them this

You’re beautiful
You are loved, and you are worthy
And you’re entirely deserving
To be happy, every once in a while
And you are strong
Even when you feel you can’t go on
You always prove yourself wrong
By getting back up
And shaking it off with a smile
And everytime that you fall down
You come around
In a matter of time
Everything’s gonna be just fine

As a kid, I was always in a rush to grow up
But now that I’m here
I’ve realized that growing old
Is my biggest fear
‘Cause year after year
Time keeps moving faster
Seasons flashing past me
Summer, autumn, winter go by
And I can’t find myself
Can someone remind me?
‘Cause I’ve forgotten
What’s the meaning
Why do I just keep on dreaming
When my future
Feels faded and fleeting
Give me a reason to believe in me again
No one said the words I need to hear, so
I learned young, you gotta be your own hero
The one you needed
When you feel defeated
To get you on your feet again

And make it all better
So I grabbed my pen and paper
And I started writing letters
To me
To say

You’re beautiful
You are loved, and you are worthy
And you’re entirely deserving
To be happy, every once in a while
And you are strong
Even when you feel you can’t go on
You always prove yourself wrong
By getting back up
And shaking it off with a smile
And everytime that you fall down
You come around
In a matter of time
Everything’s gonna be just fine

They’re gonna tell you
What you can and can’t do
Try to change everything about you, babe
But that’s a crime
They’ll try to remove
The bizarre parts of you
But you gotta stay true, yeah
Pay them no mind
They put me down but I get up again
Just to prove to all of them
That I’ll be just fine
They point out all my faults
But I don’t care at all
‘Cause I know that’s just how I was designed

Oh they used to tease me
You know it wasn’t easy
But I don’t need them to believe in me
‘Cause I already believe in myself

I made it, I made it
Look at me now, conquering my fears
I made it, I made it
Hard work, perseverance, blood sweat and tears
I made it, I made it
Always imagined I would end up right here
I made it, I made it
So cheers
‘Cause we made it

From the day that you’re born
You’re told you gotta conform
Gotta stick to the norm, yeah
Do what you’re told
When you grow up
Better not screw it up
Get a job and dress up
To fit to the mould
All my apologies
That doesn’t work for me
I got a tendency to be bold
I don’t fit in your lines
I got a different kind of mind
It’s unrefined just like my heart of gold

Oh they used to tease me
You know it wasn’t easy
But I don’t need them to believe in me
‘Cause I already believe in myself

I made it, I made it
Look at me now, conquering my fears
I made it, I made it
Hard work, perseverance, blood sweat and tears
I made it, I made it
Always imagined I would end up right here
I made it, I made it
So cheers
‘Cause we made it

Everybody’s quick to criticize
But if you saw the world through my eyes
You’d know everyone is beautiful in their own way
And everyone’s got room
To grow and improve
And I aint got nothing to prove to you
So if you aint got anything nice to say
Well baby, shut your mouth and walk away

I made it, I made it
Look at me now, conquering my fears
I made it, I made it
Hard work, perseverance, blood sweat and tears
I made it, I made it
Always imagined I would end up right here
I made it, I made it
So cheers
‘Cause we made it

These thoughts, I can't quite shrug them off
It's like the switch is broken just like me
Why can't I find a little peace and quiet
Oh, my kingdom for some silence
It's been a busy day, you should be tired, they say,
But I'm so wide awake
Overanalyzing the mistakes
And am I one? Well who's to say…

Tic toc tic toc tic toc tic toc
Seconds passing and I'm wide awake
Tic toc Tic toc Tic toc Tic toc
Why can't I shut off my brain?

It's been three weeks and I still can't sleep in my bed
Blame it on all the voices in my head
Telling me that I'd be better off dead
Blame it on the monsters under my bed

Wine and whisky make me feel fine and frisky
But with no one to please me, how can I be sleepy?
All I can think about are these infinite doubts:
I'm an idiot, I'm full of shit, and everybody knows it
Why is my existence such a crime?
I can't get my mind off my mind
Running in circles, like its a circus
But these animals are feeling nervous

Seconds passing and I'm wide awake
Tic toc Tic toc Tic toc Tic toc
Why can't I shut off my brain

It's been three weeks and I still can't sleep in my bed
Blame it on all the voices in my head
Telling me that I'd be better off dead
Blame it on the monsters under my bed
And I see, but I can't believe what I've read
Could it be that I might have been mislead
Close my eyes, but I'm wide awake instead
Blame it on the monsters under my bed

Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep
If I die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take
Am I just delirious, or is this something serious
I should see a doctor but, I don't think they'd understand us

I've got a confession, I've got a condition
And under these conditions I'm wishin' I wasn't

Well, it's been three weeks and I still can't sleep in my bed
Blame it on all the voices in my head
Telling me that I'd be better off dead
Blame it on the monsters under my bed
And I see, but I can't believe what I've read
Could it be that I might have been mislead
Close my eyes, but I'm wide awake instead
Blame it on the monsters under my bed

I don't wanna be the object of your obsession
I ain't your possession, so just move along
I've been a lone wolf my whole life, no question
You better learn your lesson and just move on

I don't wear your shackles, I won't drag your chains
You put me in a cage and it's driving me insane
Every time I try to escape, you try to place the blame
So it's my fault I don't want to be playing your stupid games
Filthy, dirty, guilty, are the feelings you insert in me,

Now I'm not the lady in your prophecy
So get your damn hands off of me
Logically you're bad for me
And typically you're mad at me
You see black and white
You see wrong and right
But it's all wrong

And I don't wanna be the object of your obsession
I ain't your possession, so just move along
I've been a lone wolf my whole life, no question
You better learn your lesson and just move on
Cause you're pulling me too close and it's just pushing me away
Mister better listen here to what I got to say
Release your grip on my wrists and I might stay
Bruises on my wrists, on my hips, on my fingertips
Pressed into your lips trying to push you away
It's written on my face

You're so dramatic, manipulative tactics
You're a felon, you're an addict
Trying to find a better fix
You've got your picks
Of the litter, a coop full of hens
But 'em lil chickie poos want you,
You don't want them
You got your eyes on the prize
Yeah, the golden goose
But she won't lay eggs for you unless you let her loose
Cause you're fighting a war you're losin'
Cruisin' for a bruisin'
You're abusin' your power and now I'm gonna lose it on ya

Oh, whoa
Because you see black and white
You say wrong or right
But it's all wrong

And I don't wanna be the object of your obsession
I ain't your possession, so just move along, move along
I've been a lone wolf my whole life, no question
You better learn your lesson and just move on
Cause you're pulling me too close and it's just pushing me away
Mister better listen here to what I got to say
Release your grip on my wrists and I might stay
Bruises on my wrists, on my hips, on my fingertips
Pressed into your lips trying to push you away
It's written on my face

I can forgive but I cannot forget
Try to learn my lesson but I just haven't yet
I can forgive but I cannot forget
Try to learn my lesson but I just haven't yet
I can forgive but I cannot forget
Try to learn my lesson but I just haven't yet
I can forgive, but I can't forget

Spoons and isopropyl alcohol
I can’t do anything as I watch you fall
Diggin’ it, diggin’ it, diggin’ it, diggin’ it deeper every day
Making a grave where you’ll soon be buried
I hold out my fingertips
To try to catch you as you slip
Down, down, down into the abyss
Just a droplet of life left
And look what you do with it

So much potential
Yet you throw it all away, babe
All new low, consequential
Self-induced neuron decay
And then they hurt you so bad
So you hurt yourself too
Just to try to fly away
From the pain inside of you

And am I losing you, my love
To all the chemicals in your blood?
I said, am I losing you, my love
To all the chemicals in your blood?

Given her everything and yet it’s still not enough for her
She identifies as a life-long sufferer
Her life was rough but her path is rougher
She clearly don’t need me cause needles are her new lover
How could I possibly ever compete with euphoria
I offered you my shoulder, wish I could do more for ya
But she’ll never be satisfied
Lies, says she’s done cryin’, but her tears are never dry
No, no, no, no

So much potential
Yet you throw it all away
All new low, consequential
Self-induced neuron decay
And they hurt you so bad
So you hurt yourself too
Just to try to fly away
From the pain inside of you

And am I losing you, my love
To all the chemicals in your blood?
I said, am I losing you, my love,
To all the chemicals in your blood?

Am I losing you, losing you my love
To all the chemicals in your blood?
I said, am I losing you, my love,
To all the chemicals in your blood?

Pleasure seeker, millilitres
Of a concoction to knock your socks off
Look what you’ve done, explosive hedon
Your clock has ticked its last tock

All my friends are gone, all my friends have left me alone
They’re either dead or addicted to some substance I can’t condone
I ran away as soon as I slammed that door
And I swear, I never never never never go back there no more

Got skeletons in my closet
A bag of sunshine in my pocket
But they broke the key to my heart
And it’s tearing me apart
Cause I can’t unlock it

So I sit high atop my throne
Made of stone and skulls and bones
So I sit high atop my throne
Made of stone and skulls and bones

Waiting, waiting, waiting
Waiting, waiting, waiting
I’m praying the doctor will bring good news soon
Sick of waiting, waiting in this blank white room
Wishing the world would change so I don’t have to
Keep on waiting, waiting for you
To come back from the blue

He said goodbye
Said “I’m going for a ride, I’ll be home tonight”
But he was on the wrong side
Of a two way mirror, he couldn’t hear her
And in retrospect it could not be any clearer
He was never coming back, no
So we put on our best black clothes
Celebrate your funeral
I like the sensation of condensation on my fascinator
But I hate that it’s the only occasion
I get to wear it and I can’t bear it
Though it’s got no mass, it’s massive
A soul is missing, the measures are drastic

And I got skeletons in my closet
A bag of sunshine in my pocket
But they broke the key to my heart
And it’s tearing me apart
Cause I can’t unlock it

So I sit high atop my throne
Made of stone and skulls and bones
So I sit high atop my throne
Made of stone and skulls and bones

Waiting, waiting, waiting
Waiting, waiting, waiting
Waiting, waiting, waiting
Waiting, waiting, waiting
I’m praying the doctor will bring good news soon
Sick of waiting, waiting in this blank white room
Wishing the world would change so I don’t have to
Keep on waiting, waiting for you
To come back from the blue

Got skeletons in my closet
A bag of sunshine in my pocket
But they broke the key to my heart
And it’s tearing me apart
Cause I can’t unlock it

Got skeletons in my closet
A bag of sunshine in my pocket
But they broke the key to my heart
And it’s tearing me apart

Got skeletons in my closet
A bag of sunshine in my pocket

Yeah, yeah, all I'm left with is
Skeletons in my closet
Ooh, I'm missing you

So many days lost to the ache, lying in my bed
Waiting for the pain to go away
So many sunrises and sunsets, trying to forget
That the pain is here to stay

Doing all I can but it doesn’t seem to work
Can’t recall a time when my body didn’t hurt
Trying to make it through but it’s hard to see the light
Fighting for my goddamn life

When will this end?
I’m a fighter but I am not this tough
When will this end?
I’m trying but it’s not good enough
I can’t pretend
That I’m all right when this is just too much
When will this end?
‘Cause I’m on the verge of giving up

So many days lost to the ache, now I’m falling behind
Cause the pain eats up my day
Cancelled plans, nausea and
Pills for breakfast, missed connections,
I’m losing my mind
Cause the pain won't go away

Doing all I can but it doesn’t seem to work
Can’t recall a time when my body didn’t hurt
Trying to make it through but it’s hard to see the light
Fighting for my goddamn life

When will this end?
I’m a fighter but I am not this tough
When will this end?
I’m trying but it’s not good enough
I can’t pretend
That I’m all right when this is just too much
When will this end?
‘Cause I’m on the verge of giving up

I wanna heal, I wanna heal, I wanna heal, I wanna heal

When will this end?
I’m a fighter but I am not this tough
When will this end?
I’m trying but it’s not good enough
I can’t pretend
That I’m all right when this is just too much
When will this end?
‘Cause I’m on the verge of giving up

Cause I’m on the verge…
God damn it hurts…
I got the urge
But I’m not giving up.
Yeah, I’m on the verge of giving up

How did I get here
I can’t believe my ears
And after all these years
How the fuck did I get here

And all the work that I’ve been doin’
And all the sleep that I’ve been losing
And all the progress I’ve been seeing
Still ain’t settlin’ in
And all the things that I accomplish
My dopamine just seems to vanish
How the fuck did I get here

Let me be the first to say that I don’t deserve all this kindness
I have many doubts and they’re all about myself
All of this success is just making me a mess
Cause it isn’t me, how could it be me?

I’m an impostor, living in somebody else's body
It’s impossible for a life like this to belong to me
I’m an impostor, and I can’t believe my eyes
Feels like I’m living two lives

Tightness in my chest
I’m awkward at my best
Still better than the rest
How the fuck am I so blessed

Suddenly I cannot breathe
I find it hard to believe
What is happening to me
I’m a broken thing I know it
I’m just too afraid to show it
What the fuck is happening to me

I’m an impostor, living in somebody else's body
It’s impossible for a life like this to belong to me
I’m an impostor, and I can’t believe my eyes
Feels like I’m living two lives

I’m an impostor
And I’m losing my shit
It’s impossible
For someone like me to live a life like this
An impostor
And I’m losing my shit, losing my shit
I’m lost in all of this

Flying in my UFO, so beautiful

I’m only happy when I’m high
Seems I’ve forgotten how to cry
I lie awake and I can't shake these thoughts
That creep into my mind
Inside, you’re over-infantile
I hide, but only for a while,
This trial and error is getting me nowhere

Where am I now?
There’s no right way no matter which path I take

Electricity itching in my chest
Never wished you anything less than the best
It’s just I’m a little sensitive, and you’re sensitive too
So we hold it in a bottle til it breaks and it cuts and it hurts
And we blow it in a bubble, watch it swell watch it burst

Where am I now?
Trying to navigate in space, take me to a better place

‘Cause it’s so hard, when you’re battling the elements
And my heart will never mend
And I feel like an alien, an alien
And I feel like an alien, an alien

Where am I now?
There’s no right way no matter which path I take
Somebody show me how
I’m trying to navigate in space, take me to a better place

‘Cause it’s so hard, when you’re battling the elements
And my heart will never mend
And I feel like an alien, an alien
And I feel like an alien, an alien

Flying in my UFO, so beautiful
Flying in my UFO, so beautiful
Flying in my UFO, so beautiful
Flying in my UFO, take me back home

Life’s a game that was fixed from the start
We keep running though we’ve already lost
Don’t you bore too deep into my heart
Knowledge comes at such a deadly cost

And don’t ask what you don’t wanna know
You’re not ready for what I’ve got to show

And when, when you come down to earth
Oh what a wonderful rebirth
Into this dimension
With all these physical limitations
The terms and conditions of your body
All that you’re not and what you wanna be
What you wanna be, what you wanna be
What do you wanna be? Who? Who? Who?

Guard your houses and bar your doors
You’re not prepared for what's in store
Guard your houses and bar your doors
You’re not prepared for what's in store
Clusters of hurricanes and hail and rain
The perfect storm

It’s my emergency and I come first
I’m always prepared for the worst

And when, when you come down to earth
Oh what a wonderful rebirth
Into this dimension
With all these physical limitations
The terms and conditions of your body
All that you’re not and what you wanna be
What you wanna be, what you wanna be
What do you wanna be? Who? What do you wanna be?
What do you wanna be? Who? What do you wanna be?
What do you wanna be?
Who? Who? Who?

Every single second is planned out in her mind
You say it’s an obsession, it’s just how she’s designed
She writes it out in sections to try and figure it out
Practicing perfection but she still has her doubts

Lined up in a stack in the back left hand corner
Surfaces are clear, then so is her mind
Every single colour in nanometric order
But there’s one thing that she cannot find

Sing it!
Where is my, where is my, where is my, where is my
Where is my, where is my,

Where is my peace of mind, where’s my peace of mind
My peace of mind, my peace of mind
My mind’s in pieces, pieces of my mind, my mind’s in pieces
Oh shit! I lost my marbles

Every day she’s rushin’ just to get it all done
Every moment hustlin’ always on the run
They say her minds a weapon, yeah it’s a loaded gun
Never gets a second to see how far she has come

Always stuck in the mirror to make sure she’s still there
If she loses focus she fears she might disappear
Fingers stuck caressing the textures of her hair
Twice she looks back or gets panic attacks from the voice in her ear

Sing it!
Where is my, where is my, where is my, where is my
Where is my, where is my,

Where is my peace of mind, where’s my peace of mind
My peace of mind, my peace of mind
My mind’s in pieces, pieces of my mind, my mind’s in pieces
Oh shit! I lost my marbles

Pressure’s buildin’ up, pressure’s buildin’ up now,
Think I’m gonna, think I’m gonna think I’m gonna
Pressure’s buildin’ up, pressure’s buildin’ up now,
Think I’m gonna, think I’m gonna gonna gonna gonna
Pressure’s buildin’ up, pressure’s buildin’ up now,
Think I’m gonna, think I’m gonna think I’m gonna
Pressure’s buildin’ up, pressure’s buildin’ up now,
Think I’m gonna, think I’m gonna think I’m gonna
Explode, explode, I think I’m gonna explode, explode
You try to diffuse my bomb, but I’m gonna explode
Try to cut my wires but you’re doing it all wrong
I think I’m gonna explode

Oh shit! I lost my marbles
Oh shit! I lost my marbles

Days go by, dazed and confused
I thought that I had nothing left to lose
They never walked a mile in your shoes
And my heart fell on the floor when I heard the news

It’s like wearing a band-aid to fix broken bones
When the room is crowded but you still feel alone
And I’m trying to speak it but they don’t understand
And I’m trying to fix it I dunno if I can

But I feel you with me
And I know you can see me
I feel you with me
And you live on in our memories

Frosty wind kisses rosy cheeks
I feel you in the winter breeze
Stealing away the weeks like little time thieves
In the darkest place you gave me the brightest memories

It’s like wearing a band-aid to fix broken bones
When the room is crowded but you still feel alone
And I’m trying to speak it but they don’t understand
And I’m trying to fix it I dunno if I can

But I feel you with me
And I know you can see me
I feel you with me
And you live on in our memories

Face pressed against a window pane
To try to see the brighter side
Yearned for a place without any pain
But could never get inside
We burnt our bridges as we built them
Creating castles just to knock them down
We’ll sleep when the sun comes up
But the moon is out now
And the moon is always out when you’re not around

It’s like wearing a band-aid to fix broken bones
When the room is crowded but you still feel alone
And you’re trying to speak it but they don’t understand
And I’m trying to fix it I dunno if I can
But I feel you with me
And I know you can see me
I feel you with me
You live on in our memories

Days go by, dazed and confused…

You’ve made it this far
You can make it through anything
I see all your scars
I understand without asking
There’s no better or worse
We’ve all got our own story
We know how it hurts
And we’re in recovery

Listen to me, you’ll make it through
Look in the mirror, your saviour is you
You’ve got to breathe, it’s all you can do

You’re alive, breathing
You’re alive, can’t you feel your heart beating
You’re alive and there’s a reason
You’re alive and that’s worth something

All too familiar with death
I remember thinking, is this my last breath
Despite the odds I’m still here
And it’s so hard but it gets easier

Listen to me, you’ll make it through
Look in the mirror, your saviour is you
You’ve got to breathe, it’s all you can do

You’re alive, breathing
You’re alive, can’t you feel your heart beating
You’re alive and there’s a reason
You’re alive and that’s worth something

Life’s gonna test you, it’ll throw you to your knees
But you gotta believe
Tomorrow is a new day
It’ll be better in the morning when you wake
So BREATHE

You’re alive, breathing
You’re alive, can’t you feel your heart beating
You’re alive and there’s a reason
You’re alive and that’s worth something

You’re worth something

**Verse 1**
Coffee and a cigarette / To start off my day
I don’t feel like getting out of bed / But I do it anyway
I know I’m not alone / But I feel so lonely
This misery is takin’ me / this dissonance is shakin’ my body

**Chorus**
Diggin’ myself a hole
Big enough to fit this empty soul
Diggin’ myself a grave
Mama, I can’t be saved

**Verse 2**
I remember / and I can’t catch my breath
I regret it / so I sentence these memories to death
The verdict that followed / Did not satisfy my desire
So I took it upon myself / to set your skin on fire

**Chorus**
Diggin’ myself a hole
Big enough to fit this empty soul
Diggin’ myself a grave
Mama, I can’t be saved

**Bridge**
Whoa, whoa

**Chorus**
Diggin’, I’m diggin’, I’m diggin’ myself a hole
Gotta be big enough to fit this heavy soul
Diggin’ myself a grave
Mama, I can’t be saved

**Verse 1**
So you’re your own god, frankly, nobody cares
Hate to break it to ya darlin’ but life is unfair
You tell me I’m not worth a minute of your time
Sorry sweetie, you’re not worth a single second of mine

**Chorus**
Do your worst cause you can’t take something from nothing
I would know, cause I once had it all
When you’ve got no one you’ve got nothing to lose
That’s what you told me, as I recall
Only at death do we show our true colours
And frankly my love, yours is black
Once you figure all this out
And come back on your knees
It’s then that
You’ll realize I’m not coming back
No, not this time

**Verse 2**
You got so many faces I can’t tell which one is you
You’re a walking contradiction, boy, you got me so confused
Cause you say that you love me, then you say you want me dead
Well your voodoo dolls don’t scare me at all cause you’re outta your fucking head

**Chorus**
Do your worst cause you can’t take something from nothing
I would know, cause I once had it all
When you’ve got no one you’ve got nothing to lose
That’s what you told me, as I recall
Only at death do we show our true colours
And frankly my love, yours is black
Once you figure all this out
And come back on your knees
It’s then that
You’ll realize I’m not coming back

**Bridge**
Oh no

**Chorus**
Do your worst cause you can’t take something from nothing
I would know, cause I once had it all
When you’ve got no one you’ve got nothing to lose
That’s what you told me, as I recall
Only at death do we show our true colours
And frankly my love, yours is black
Once you figure all this out
And come back on your knees
It’s then that
You’ll realize I’m not coming back
No, not this time

**Outro**
Now that you’re gone, I’m not coming ba-a-a-ack,
No, no, not this time
I’m movin’ on, I’m not coming ba-a-a-a-ack
No, not this time

**Verse 1**
Always a shadow behind you
Ghost of the memories to remind you
Fragments of their presence
Those who robbed her of her innocence

**Chorus**
Walking, walking, walking, walking through the
stre-e-et
Silence, silence, silence, silence, si-ilence
Nothing but my heartbeat
Every, every, every, every, e-e-every
Time that we meet
Just silence, silence, silence, silence si-ilence
Nothing but my heartbeat

**Verse 2**
Just because you can’t see them / Doesn’t make them any less real
Her collection of masks to conceal
All the insecurities she feels
So she dissociates into the surreal

**Chorus**
Walking, walking, walking, walking through the
stre-e-et
Silence, silence, silence, silence, si-ilence
Nothing but my heartbeat
Every, every, every, every, e-e-every
Time that we meet
Just silence, silence, silence, silence si-ilence
Nothing but my heartbeat

**Bridge**
Buh-beat, buh-beat *x 8*

**Chorus**
Walking, walking, walking, walking through the
stre-e-et
Silence, silence, silence, silence, si-ilence
Nothing but my heartbeat
Every, every, every, every, e-e-every
Time that we meet
Just silence, silence, silence, silence si-ilence
Nothing but my heartbeat

**Chorus**
I'm not going home with you tonight
I'd rather be alone, cause it feels right
Hey mister, did you hear me, I said no / get out of my sight
Cause I'm not going home with anyone tonight

**Verse 1**
I hear the whispers and I feel the stares
You know I notice you, but you don't care
And I smile on, the only thing I know how to do in this situation
I don't know how to react but you're in my face and that's a fact
And I never asked for your attention

**Prechorus**
I don't know where you got the clue / that made you believe I was into you
Cause that notion just isn't true / and you're acting straight up strictly rude
I don't think I could be clearer / but if you dare come one step nearer
I'll make you regret it

**Chorus**
I'm not going home with you tonight
I'd rather be alone, cause it feels right
Hey mister, did you hear me, I said no / get out of my sight
Cause I'm not going home with anyone tonight

**Verse 2**
He should've learned to watch his mouth
And how to keep his filthy hands to himself
As I resist and he persists I know I must give in
I can't win, I'm not stronger than him
Maybe I should've dressed more conservatively
So that he wouldn't be mentally undressing me
But why should that be a lady's responsibility?

**Prechorus**
I don't know where you got the clue / that made you believe I was into you
Cause that notion just isn't true / and you're acting straight up strictly rude
I don't think I could be clearer / but if you dare come one step nearer
I'll make you regret it

**Chorus**
I'm not going home with you tonight
I'd rather be alone, cause it feels right
Hey mister, did you hear me, I said no / get out of my sight
Cause I'm not going home with anyone tonight

**Bridge**
Hello, officer, I'd like to report a crime
I'm sorry, no, there were no witnesses at the time
What do I gotta do to get through to you?
I swear on my mother I'm telling the truth
But all I got are my words and my tears for proof
Cause some scars don't show on the outside
And some scars will never heal
Some scars we spend our whole lives trying to hide
But that don't make them any less real
So teach me, tell me how I'm supposed to feel
Cause I don't know how I'm supposed to heal
And that's why...

**Chorus**
I'm not going home with you tonight
I'd rather be alone, cause it feels right
Hey mister, did you hear me, I said no / get out of my sight
Cause I'm not going home with anyone tonight

**Chorus**
I’m a stone cold killer baby don’t you mess around with me
I’m a stone cold killer baby don’t you mess around with me
I’m a cold-blooded murderer don’t you dare lie to me
I’m a sto-o-o-one cold killer baby

**Verse 1**
I don’t even know how I’m still alive
I guess I just give in, keep it in, let it go, let it out and I survive
I’m so sick and tired of trying to live this lie
It’s gotten to the point where it makes no difference if I live or if I die

Don’t you just wish you could put life on pause
You know me, baby, I’m dying for the cause
Don’t you wish, just for a second, you could put life on hold
It’s so hard to live this way when your heart is ice cold

**Chorus**
I’m a stone cold killer baby don’t you mess around with me
I’m a stone cold killer baby don’t you mess around with me
I’m a cold-blooded murderer don’t you dare lie to me
I’m a sto-o-o-one cold killer baby

**Verse 2**
There goes another day, and it seems its gone to waste
I don’t know anything anymore, I just copy and paste
Filling out the forms, filling in the blanks
Grinding gears just to move up the ranks

You’ve only got one direction, it only goes one way
Make sure you’ve gone the right way, make sure not to stray
It’s the same damn thing day after day after day
And I want to get away, yeah, I gotta break away

**Verse 1**
Say you want me, make it real
Cause I know exactly just how I feel
When you come next to me I feel the ecstasy oh what you do to me
Is so surreal
Take it easy, take it slow
I break easily, don't you know
Oh they say I'm a wild child, but I'm fragile, it's just been a while
Since I've shown my soul

**Chorus**
Have you ever danced with somebody in the rain
while the sun is shining through the clouds as they evaporate away?
The visible spectrum is in full bloom in the afternoon

**Verse 2**
It's all new to me, can you tell
I've been livin' in my own personal jail cell
I've been confined, I'm losing my mind behind these steel bars
And it's been hell
So I try to hide my eyes
So you wont see through me, I gotta admit I'm a little bit shy
But you're the kinda guy who don't ask what or why you just feel the vibes
And that's how we get by

All that we have is this moment
No future or past, just the present
But all I can taste is disaster, waiting to happen.

And all that I know is I don't know
How to hang on and just let it go
Find myself surrounded with worries unfounded

I lay paralyzed
While the hours fly by
Is it all right if I just survive?
Don't need to be perfect
But I'll try to be kind
Is it enough just to be alive?

Trying to find meaning in darkness
Getting lost in the process of untangling this mess
It's gotta mean something because if it means nothing then that means there's nothing left

I am not broken just scarred
My scars make me whole, I've learned to love every part
When you think that you're imperfect
It turns out you're a work of art

It's gotta mean something
Well maybe I'm something
That made themselves from nothing

All that we have is this moment
No future or past, just the present
But all I can taste is disaster,
waiting to happen.

And all that I know is I don't know
How to hang on and just let it go
Find myself surrounded
with worries unfounded

I lay paralyzed
While the hours fly by
Is it all right if I just survive?
Don't need to be perfect
But I'll try to be kind
Is it enough just to be alive?

Trying to find meaning in darkness
Getting lost in the process of untangling the mess
Well, it's gotta mean something
'Cause if it means nothing
then that means there's nothing left

I am not broken just scarred
And my scars make me whole,
I've learned to love every part
When you think that you're imperfect
And it turns out you're a work of art

I lay paralyzed
While the hours fly by
Is it all right if I just survive?
Don't need to be perfect
But I'll try to be kind
Is it enough just to be alive?

(Just to be alive)
(Just to be alive)

It's gotta mean something
Well, maybe I'm something
That made themselves from nothing

I lay paralyzed
While the hours fly by
Is it all right if I just survive?
Don't need to be perfect
But I'll try to be kind
Is it enough just to be alive?

Hello, it’s me. Is there anybody there?
Hello, it’s me again… does anybody care?
I’ve been knocking at your door
And it’s been days, or weeks, or months & I’m not sure
If you can hear me, hear me, heal me
Are you not listening, listening? Listen to me!

Please, come down and let me in
‘cause I can’t stand waiting
For you to change your mind
I don’t want to waste your time

I’ve got better things to do
Than trying to change myself for you
So you’d look at me the way I look at you
You— (x4)

Water fills my lungs again
The pressure, the pressure is building
Our chests are, chests are collapsing
I can’t believe this is how it ends
Cause I break, and I break, and I bend
I break and I break and I
Put my trust in the captain
Never imagined this would happen

Now I’m…
Shipwrecked, I’ve been lost at sea
The waves keep crashing over me
Searching for a surface, but I’m sixty feet below
Paralyzed/by the tides/I’m dragged down by…
The undertow…
LET ME GO!
I SAID NO!
NO!

If I’m gonna drown…
Then you’re going down
With me
You’re going down with me

Please, come down and let me in
‘cause I can’t stand waiting
For you to change your mind
I don’t want to waste your time

I rode aboard the boat that was destined to sink
I can’t find the right words to say and it’s so difficult to think

But I’m gonna change…
Yeah things will never be the same
I’m gonna change, not for you, but for me